There are no words...

                    There are no words that can adequately
                      express how much I miss you right now,
                      Mom. I wish you were here to talk to.

I just never knew. I never imagined that this many years later,
after she was gone, that I would still have tears streaming down my face when I thought of her. I never knew that there would be no end to the missing.

Mother's Day comes and goes every year. I can't help but buy
her a card. I write the words I would say if I could still give it to her in person.

I just never knew that the missing would be forever, every day
for the rest of my life.

February 19th comes and goes every year. It was her birthday.
I can't help but get her a birthday card, and I write the words
I would say if I could still give it to her in person.

I just never knew.

I just never knew that there could be so much hurt and hatred in the country she loved so much, the country my Dad spent three years away from her to defend. If she was here, she would be so sad to see her country so broken, people so hurting toward each other.

If she was here, I know she's be calling every day, sharing her wisdom and her hope. I know she would say what she always said to me, "Honey, with love we can get through anything."

If she was here, I'd tell her how hard this past year has been, how my heart is aching and feels like it might break. If she was here, I know she would have just the right thing to say. She would wipe away my tears. She would know just how to comfort me. She would remind me not to give up hope, to hang on tightly to God.
She would remind me that everything has a season.

And I would whisper to her that I wish this particular season would
go away. That I wish things were easier right now. And I would remind her that her love for me gave me the strength to be fully myself. I would thank her for loving me, just as I am.

If she was here, I would tell her I'm sorry for every time I was a bit impatient as she grew older. I would tell her I love her, that I will always love her. I told her I loved her over and over again, but I wish she was here so I could tell her one more time.

There are no words. I just didn't know. She isn't here, she's home with God. But I will miss her until my last breath here. 

I am so grateful to God for my special Mom, She was amazing and 
I was blessed every day to know her and love her.

I saw this amazing and heart-wrenching video and wanted to share it with any of you who might be reading this. Also, if your Mama is here, let her know you love her. You'll be glad you did!


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Mk0F6mLKik


God Bless!
Love, Linda