It just seems that this is a time of great change. I'm not a big fan of change under any circumstance, but when multiple changes happen simultaneously, well my boat can be rocked a bit. Or rocked a lot.
I've felt fear creep in, from time to time recently. I've felt like I am sitting back and watching
things happen that I would rather not see happen. And I have no control to change things.
And that is the truth . I have no control.
God does. But I don't.
What I do have control over is how I react to all of it. Those changes that I might assume
are changing in ways I don't like, I can pray about them. I can turn them over to Him, the God I know and love and serve.
And no matter what, I can trust Him.
I gave my life and heart and mind to God when I was 14 years old. I was at Malibu, a Young Life camp.
I knew then, and I still know now, that God loves me. He is here with me. I can choose fear or I can choose trusting God.
I've been processing these changes with my beloved Bert. I told Bert yesterday that I just kept praying all day. In between classes. When I first got up. When I ate something. When I walked down the hall. When I greeted all the students in my classes.
It's almost the end of the school year. Graduation is soon upon us. Some of my students are fearful they may not graduate. You can almost feel the fear in my classroom.
So I just chose to pray all day. To turn their fear and mine over to the God who loves me.
I gave it to Him.
And suddenly, in the midst of the turmoil at school, a palpable calm descended on me.
I could physically feel it. On my face and in my heart and mind.
I just kept praying and saying these words.
I will trust You God. I will choose right here, right now to trust you.
And then a song I heard awhile back came to mind.
As I listened to it again, the tears flowed.
I felt more calm.
If you are struggling with fear this morning, you might want to listen to this song.
It's a great reminder of God's love!